Archive for May, 2007

The Gay Issue

At work we were discussing several prominent people in entertainment and the names of a few gay men came up. It started me thinking about the gay issue. I have nothing against gays and in fact I am friends with some very sweet people who happen to be gay. Something I found surprising – at first every one of them started dating girls, and had a really bad experience with them before they became gay. One of my friend’s girlfriend of 4 years dumped him for his best friend and told him that maybe he would have better luck with guys. Another caught his fiancé sleeping with another man one night as he came home late from work. She told him he wasn’t man enough for her. Another of my friends asked a girl out and she told him that the only thing fat guys were good for was to be gay and a drag queen. Each of these guys didn’t start out gay; they were programmed to be gay.

It’s my belief that no one is born gay. They are programmed to be gay by society or by others. My mother used a perfect explanation for this. Our bodies, like electrical wiring are set up so that if you turn the switch on it will respond in turn. When you flip the light switch it doesn’t think to itself that it’s human oriented, or if instead you use a hairbrush to turn it on its not hairbrush oriented. The same thing happens with the human body. If someone touches you in a place that “turns you on” you were turned on. Just because someone of the same sex as you did it doesn’t mean you are oriented to like that sex or that person, it just means your body works right.

Happy Mother’s Day

Happy Mother’s day! Today we honor our mothers who in my case was and is my hero, one of my best friends, and the person I most want to be like when I grow up. Yes at the age of 27 I still don’t think I am fully grown up. My mother gave everything she had to protect me and my sisters. She chose to end a cycle of abuse and in doing so gave up her security for the future. Every day I live I am so thankful for my mother. I love you Mommy! Thanks for doing an AWESOME job!

For Mother’s day I thought I would give everyone something funny to read.

The 9 Things Women say that Men should know.

1.) Fine:  This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

 2.) Five Minutes:  If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.  Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing:  This is the calm before the storm.  This means something, and you should be on your toes.  Arguments that begin with Nothing usually end in Fine.

4.) Go Ahead:  This is a dare, not permission. Don’t Do It!

5.) Loud Sigh:  This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men.  A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about Nothing.  (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of Nothing.)

6.) That’s Okay:  This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man.  That’s Okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.) Thanks:  A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint.  Just say you’re welcome.

8.) Whatever:  Is a women’s way of saying SCREW YOU!

9.) Don’t worry about it, I got it:  Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself.  This will later result in a man asking “What’s wrong?”  For the woman’s response refer to #3.

My Thoughts for the day

Reading in the news today I see a story about Alcoa trying to make a $27 billion Hostile bid to take over a Canadian company called Alcan after talks between the two companies failed to produce a merger for the companies. It got me thinking about a few things.Recently one of the groups I game with went through a hostile merger. I call it thus because the member of the shell who wanted to merge his shell pushed and pushed for the answer to be yes. Now the leader of the group that was merged into his member’s shell isn’t happy with how things are turning out.When do you draw the line between a Take over and a merge of groups or more so, when do you draw the line from consent to go along with a plan to being pushed against your own will into something you don’t want to do.

Everyone is granted agency. This is not something that we have to earn in life; it is a gift from God. Why is it that people so readily give up this agency to allow others to tell them how to act, and what to do? Why is it that we will allow others to determine what is best for us? When we allow others to determine our course in life we become nothing more than lemmings that will follow the one ahead of us even if it is over a cliff and to our deaths. 

The scriptures tell us that we must be “in the world but not of it.” What does this mean to us as individuals and children of our father in heaven?To me it means that even though I buy stylish clothing I can still look classy.  I don’t need to “show what I have” or be vulgar to fit in. If I compromise myself to fit someone else’s idea of what is normal then I give them control of my choices. I want to say at the end of the day that I am free to choose my own way in this world. Whether or not my choices are the right ones is not the point, it’s that I made the choice of my own free will and I accept the consequences of these choices.

I am thankful for a mother who has always let me make my own choices and after they were made taught me to learn from the choice. There is no “wrong” answer in life; there is only which was better and which was not. If you keep making the not as good choice in a situation look at it as a test you need to pass. Why do you keep making the choice you make? What lesson can you learn from the choice you made? What can you do the next time you encounter this situation to make the outcome better?

This life is a test for us to pass to gain an eternal life where we will progress. During Christmas I heard for the first time the parable of the bicycle. For those of you who haven’t heard this cute story I will paraphrase it.

A little girl asks her dad for a bike for Christmas. Her father who doesn’t really have the money for a bike tells her if she saves all her pennies eventually she will be able to afford a bike. A few weeks later he sees his daughter doing chores for her mother for pennies. When he asks her what she is doing she tells him that she is saving her pennies for her bike. Touched that she took the lesson to heart he asks his small daughter how much she has saved. She says she has something like 67 cents. He realizes that she will work but at the rate she is going it would take years for her to earn her bike. He takes her to the store and tells her she can pick any bike she wants. The bike costs $100.00. She pays her 67 cents and he covers the rest.  

From this he realizes that the atonement of Christ is a lot like his daughters bike. You can try all your life to become perfect but somehow you will never reach it. When you die, Christ will say “What do you have?” once you have given all you can he will cover the difference for you. Without his help we can never make it all the way to our goal; however we do need to give all we have.

The atonement will not carry us and pick up where we won’t even try. Eventually we have to stand on our own two feet.  This reminds me of a poem I once read. Butt prints in the Sand

One night I had a wondrous dream,
One set of footprints there was seen,
The footprints of my precious Lord,
But mine were not along the shore.
But then some stranger prints appeared,
And I asked the Lord,” What have we here?”
Those prints are large and round and neat.
“But Lord, they are too big for feet.”
“My child,” He said in somber tones,
“For miles I carried you alone.
I challenged you to walk in faith,
But you refused and made me wait.”

“You disobeyed, you would not grow,
The walk of faith, you would not know,
So I got tired, I got fed up.
And there I dropped you on your butt.”

“Because in life, there comes a time,
When one must fight, and one must climb,
When one must rise and take a stand,
Or leave their butt prints in the sand.”

Author unknown

Will your footprints be along with our lords or will your butt print show where he got tired of carrying you?

Why

Why

My soul aches
My heart cries
My body Aches
And I want to close my eyes
Close my eyes
To shut it out
But I can’t… because it’s all too real
And so hard to talk about
You have a soul
That’s black and blue
From what that PERSON
did to you
I understand your feelings
And can see into your heart
Your soul is knotted up
And your mind is torn apart
Why do bad things happen
To people of pure heart?
For they are Gods children,
And have been from the start.
Let me be your helper
Let me be your friend
For I can help you thru this
And I’ll be there till the end

©2002

When Angels Cry

When Angels Cry

When Angels cry,
Someone falls in love,
A child is born,
A friendship dies.

When Angels cry,
A child flies,
A heart is broken,
A lover dies.

When Angels cry,
A heart is mended,
A child laughs,
My soul flies.

When Angels cry,
A world is born,
A thought is found,
A friend is bound.

© 15 June 2002

What I Have

What I Have

What I have is given freely
To the one I love
And all that I can give you
Came to me from above
Two hands to hold you
When you’ve lost your sight
Two eyes to watch you
While I hold you tight
Two ears to hear you
Talking with me
One heart to love you
That will never be set free
One mouth to kiss you
And know that you are mine
One life to spend with you
And all will be just fine.

© August 11, 2002

What a Jerk

What a Jerk

I seem to always
Say something wrong
And when I do
I hurt someone
I need to think
Before I speak
Because when I don’t
I end up feeling
Like a Jerk.
I’m sorry for my stupid ways.

©2002

Untitled Poem

Untitled Poem

I sit here in a daze
How can life be such a maze
I thought he loved me, I was sure
And then he used me, and I was pure
I feel so dirty now
Someone tell me how
How any man can think its fine
To take a girl, “Because your mine.”
Now I feel like a whore
Because I walked thru your door
How could you do this to me
I can not see
I’m crying in the shower now
I know that I can get clean, but how??
I didn’t ask you to take me this way
I didn’t want to have sex today
But still you forced yourself on me
How cruel can you be?
You took from me more than my virginity
You took my innocence and serenity
I’m ashamed of who you made me
Because I knew what I wanted to be
What made you think that you could take
From me a decision I wouldn’t make
You’ve taken something very dear
And someday I will make you hear
The screams that I suppressed while you took from me
What I wouldn’t give to you.

© September 1998
It was written because it happened to me.

To Court Death

To Court Death

To court with death
To live my life.
What do I want to do?
Eternal sleep or wake again?
What a cruddy choice.
I want to die and want to cry
I want to get away
To flirt with death, and know his kiss
and feel his embrace again.
To live a lie and walk away
Free in Death’s embrace
To feel his warmth and know his soul
or leave him in my past
To walk the path or cross the line
of all the things to choose
To live my life or flirt with Death….
to prolong my date or bring it close
a choice that once is made
can alter many things
that in my life I’ve made.
Oh what a choice oh why must I
tempt my fates again.
To life with life or flirt with Death
to bring his comfort near or leave it in my past.

© 2003

The Man I Love

The Man I Love
.
In the darkness of the night
I sit and read by candle light
I read a story of a love
Sent to people from above
And I wish with all my heart
That I’ll find one with whom I’ll never part
So many men, so few with brains
Why should I bother with the pains?
I’ll keep on searching for the one
And one day bear him a son..
For the man I choose to love
Will be sent to me from Heaven above.
.
©2002

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